It's funny... just when i thought she has lost her conscience, she said she actually felt guilty the other day. I almost thought she might have read my blog but no way. Well of course, she's all just talk, she even considers finding the 3rd guy since her current "bf" has no time for her. the whole idea is to keep a "backup" if one doesnt work out. Will i get like that when Im her age? Of course, im not dying to get married at the moment. Im not even in the mood to have a relationship. Surely we all have different goals in life.... and hers apparently is to get married asap(wif a rich guy idealy). I wish her the best of luck.

I gone running twice this week. Kai's attending marathon next month so, he's practicing too. It's great to have a company so I dun give up half way. I wanna be fit damnit!!!! I need to buy a freakin corset tomorrow, I must get it after work!! I bought this dress in Japan when i was actually "slim". Now I've gained weight and I dun look as good in it anymore :( This is what I'll be wearing on Halloween so I MUST GET THE GODDAMN CORSET!!!!

I dun believe it... Tim msged me on fb and wants to be friends AGAIN. he's deleted me twice on both fb and ms. so he said: "Hi Manda, how's life? Still doing that law course? I think I saw you in Central dressed all smart - looking good :) " Hmmmm.... of course i'll be all nice and be friends again. Hes prolly the biggest jerk i ever met but if you ever wonder why a wife beater's wife never leaves her husband... this is exactly what it feels like. hes hot, hes a musician. He doesnt appear to be the person he actually is on his pix. looks can be deceiving i know... sigh. OR maybe he only treats ME badly. I maybe stupid, but not stupid enuff to sleep wif him. Annnnd i wonder how many times he will delete me and wanna be friends again hahahahhaa...

My auntie passed away last Friday. I rushed back on Sat morning wif mum, hoping to see her for the last time on Sunday before she got burnt to ashes. There was no room on Sunday and I was only told that after I got there. Well guess I was not destined to see her after all... sigh. Anyway, still got to see some relatives, especially my grandma. She was very sad about the death of her daughter. To be honest, I believe my aunt had lost the will to live long time ago. She was suffering from illness but refused to take medication. So she must be in a better place now.

I never forget that you read the story of Pinocchio to me before bed every night. Thanks for taking care of me when i was there. I will miss you. R.I.P. Aunt Lin.

Adding Miguel to the "Guys I've kissed". It's amazing how I can even count. He's cute. He even tried to speak to me in Spanish. But I don't understand. For the first time, I felt ok to hang wif a guy who barely speaks English. Usually I can't be bothered, but then again, talking was not necessary last night. A little less conversation, a little more action please.

Had a karaoke marathon wif Laurence on Fri night. We sang til there was no battery on our mics. 4 of them by the way :P came home at 7. Dad was playing chinese flute AGAIN at around 9 despite I was sleeping. I was sooooo pissed off. WHY is he so inconsiderate?! Mum told him to stop but he completely ignored her. Until she pointed out that I was sleeping. Actually, he did the same today but I was sleeping like a dead person. 12 hrs of sleep is definitely satisfying.

Should I stay or should I go? Old boss wants me to work for her. My concerns are 1) we've known each other for awhile and I gotta be more helpful. 2) she works too hard, I may have problem applying leave. 3) i can't slack anymore 4) I MUST be at work on time. Im unlikely to leave but she's offering 2000 more... so I put it to my consideration. God knows how long she will stay there! If she left, I'd be fucked!

Just procrastinating... and some bitching

Nothing productive done so far.

X mentioned about the money last week, unexpected. But Im glad he did, at least it makes me feel he still has some respect for me? It's been more than a yr after all. We all have family issues. Surely I feel sorry for him but dude, get a proper job and save up. I dun mind helping people who have real problems but last he said, he's in no rush gettin a job. Go figure.

My ex has stopped talkin to me for awhile. Maybe he's been reading my blog, I dunno. I s'pose it's good for both of us. He no longer feels guilty about breakin up wif me; i no longer have to pretend that i feel fine and i can prove that I can talk to him. Stef told me guys have a harder time gettin over a girl. I insist it doesnt apply on my ex.

So apparently, Y is engaged. She never bothered to tell me the good news. Friends? Hmm... yeh it makes me wonder. Anyway, I dunno if she's a user. She has lots of friends. I felt a bit funny when she told me all her worst problems while kept emphasizing she didnt wanna tell her best friends cuz it might worry them. That indicates Im not her best friend, which is fine, she's not mine either but I guess you dun have to hint it. it was rather rude. Then i was kind enuff to lend her 2k. Right it wasnt that much but it's not something a so-called friend (aka me) would do. But i did anyway. It had helped her to meet her prince charming (aka the guy she's engaged to now) and i hope she appreciates what i did. Basically after she paid me back, she never really spoke to me again.

Im in a bitching mood today. I just wanna bitch bitch bitch. bringin out the worst side of me, saying the meanest thing about certain people. Honestly anyone who really knows me gotta agree im an easy-going person and i dun get pissed off at someone easily. Because of the way I grew up, I learnt to keep my kool, despise what people say and not give a shit about them. They gotta get on my nerve if Im giving them "attention"..... Right imma take a deeeeeeeeeep breath and wish y'all well. SO well.